even since you left

ever since you left us all those years ago, i have never asked you for anything, nor say that i hate you when people ask me how i feel about you.

i never asked you for money to buy new shoes, books, or even pocket money.

you're suppose to help feeds us every month and yet we get nothing from you.

when you visit you just give us each RM50 and thinks it's enough.

when you last visited you said i could ask you for help if i needed it, yet now that i lost my phone and i asked you to lend me some money to buy a new one, you never even cared to call back.
well, u did but i was not home at the time. but since than i've called and messaged you so many times yet you never call.

every time i see my friends hang out, or go to the basketball court with their dad's how do you think i feel, knowing that my dad doesn't even care to call.

what am i to you?

i wonder?

pass few weeks

hi people, well in the pass few weeks i've been to sad and emo to really write anything.
got rejected by a gal few weeks back than been treated kinda badly by friends on one night, haven't really gotten over the girl yet but things were finally looking up for me when today i lost my phone at work, it not that i lost my phone that's bothering me the most its the fact that i've lost all my contacts, so if u guys are kind enough to send me your contact numbers via e-mail i'll be really grateful, i think i'll be phoneless for awhile so if u guys need to contact me just call my house phone, thanks.

EVER FEEL LIKE PEOPLE ARE JUST USING YOU??


EVER SCARED THAN THE PERSON YOU LOVE WILL FORGET YOU WHEN YOU LEAVE THEIR SIDE?

THAT SOME PERSON BETTER THAN YOU WILL JUST TAKE THEM AWAY, LEAVING YOU ALL ALONE, SAD, ANGRY AND JUST WISHING THEY HAD JUST KILLED YOU AFTER TAKING THAT PERSON AWAY?

EVER WONDER IF YOURS FRIENDS JUST HANG OUT WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU CAN DRIVE THEM AROUND? AND IF THEY HAD THEIR OWN CAR, THEY WOULD JUST LEAVE YOU AT HOME BORED AS HELL WHILE THEY ENJOYED THEMSELVES?

WHY IS LIFE SO DAMN HARD ON ME?

ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY, IS THAT SO HARD TO ASK FOR?

something i found on the internet

found this as a comment on a guns and roses vid.......
no offence to anyone.......


You say akon-I say AC/DC
You say britney spears-I say Ozzy Osbourne
You say little wayne- i say Iron Maiden
You say Jonas Brothers-I say Guns & Roses
You say Miley Cyrus-I say LEDZEPPLIN
You say rap-I say ROCK!!!
You say pop-I say just about any rocker that sings better drunk or high
You say hip hop- i say f*ck you

basketball comp

these are the two teams from molek C:
from left: chang you. shu jye, aaron, and da zi lao(they got second)
heres's my team from left: jian wei, fang zheng, and me(we got forth)


this morning went for a basketball free style competition, managed to get forth place haha...

so happy, first time manged to into the semi-finals of any 3-on-3 competition C:

good performance from both my team mates... thanks a lot guys..

WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

change of plans

well, my mum wants me to star on the 4th of may which i think is way too early.
so i asked if there's any later date.... turns out the next intake in sept..

so now i'm trying to find a way into SG..... hope i can somehow find a way than i'll be closer to home and be closer to the one i love C:

and i think i'll feel more at home in SG.....

well i'll just have to see how things turn out....

Goodbye to you my trusted friends

well my friends, the time has come to say goodbye. I'm leaving for a place called setapak ,in early May,which is around 8km from KL. My friends whom i'll be leaving behind i just wanna say thanks for the memories i'll really miss you guys a lot, dunno when i'll be back but i'm sure we'll get together when i do. well i guess i'll have to prepare myself to leave a lot of stuff behind, start a new life make new friends, but i'm sure the friends i make there can never be as close as the one's i have here. some of you i've known since i was 7, other have been with me from my 1st day in secondary school, we've play together, cried together, made fun of each other, anoyed each other, done some really stupid stuff together, creeped out in the middle of the night together, helped each other out in times of need, done all the stuff that friends do, some of you guys are like brothers ans sisters to me, i would gladly help any of u guys out anytime.

well since i still have about a month left here lets enjoy each moment we spent together, i'll most likely have a farewell party before i leave, not too sure on that yet. but hey lets not get all sad and just enjoy each moment we have together C:


cheers,
nigel








this song really says all that i wanna say, it really reflects how i feel at the moment, enjoy.